A long month..

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Kailee's school Thanksgiving feast! Too cute!

Well, it's been a long while since I've wrote on here. There have been many things going on this past month that I would now like to share with you.

The day after we could not see the sex of the baby, we found out that she would not live. Faith Hope Staniland died 10 days later.

It has been truly surreal to go through this, yet at the same time,it has been hopeful, powerful, faith building, trust building and humbling. God has truly held Jeff and I every step of the way. HE guided our decisions, and brought us to a place of peace, when I didn't think it was possible.

I had a D and E done to remove Faith's body on Dec 2, and I am recovering fine. I feel back to normal now and healed from all physical wounds. The emotional scars are still there, and I know the will always be with me. Faith Hope will always be in our hearts, and I cannot wait to see her someday in Heaven. I know she is waiting up there smiling down on me as we speak.

As I write this, I tear up with JOY, knowing that our Heavenly Father is taking care of her, and knowing that she will NEVER feel pain and hurt like we do. She is safely in our Father's arms...for eternity!

I thank so many of you for your thoughts and prayer sand support over these past few weeks.. Jeff and I could not have done this alone. I know you are in our lives for specific reasons..so THANK YOU!

Faith Hope had Turner's syndrome. ( You can look up the specifics..there is a lot of info).

Many children can live a healthy life with Turner's, and many can live a limited life with Turner's. Faith's conditions was a bit too severe for her to make it full term. Turner's syndrome is chromosome related and it was a complete chance that we had a baby with this condition. I think this stat gives me hope for future pregnancies. We know our family is not complete yet, and we are looking forward to our next baby, whenever that day comes...

Kailee has been doing AWESOME. In these last 6 weeks, she has progressed SO MUCH! She is talking like crazy! She is understand and comprehending SO MUCH more then she ever has, and it is a true blessing to watch. She is a miracle! We had her next surgery scheduled for Jan 4th, but that will now be pushed back to sometime in the spring. We decided to wait a bit after all that has occurred.

Here are pictures of the last weeks...I hope you enjoy our goofy girl:)

With love, Stephanie

AHHHHH

We went today to have our ultrasound of the baby. We were so excited to find out the sex, not to mention how the baby is doing, and the exact due date, etc.

The tech guys couldn't tell us anything, and now I have to wait till my next Dr. visit just to hear how the baby is doing!!!

The stinking baby had it's butt all the way down, and the technician couldn't see the "area".

Jeff and I are now contemplating on waiting to find out. A surprise would be great!

Of course, if we end up finding out, I'll post it!

Kai is doing great...as always!

Surgery Date

Hey All!

We have a surgery date for Kailee's right cochlear implant.

It will be Jan 4, 2010, almost exactly ONE YEAR from her first surgery. I cannot believe it's been that long!

Jeff and I were hoping to get the surgery done before the holidays, but we feel blessed that she is able to get it at all.

Thanks for all your prayers for us as we made this decision. We are excited for Kailee and her future.

Kailee girl is sick this week, so we've been staying in and laying low! I hope she gets better soon. I hate being inside, so does Kailee! At least she doesn't have the flu!

Blessings...

PUMPKIN PATCH

This week we went to TWO pumpkin patches! Once with Kailee's class, and once with some good friends.

The first day was UN-eventful and NO SMILES from Kailee. All I wanted was a smile!!! My mom came with, which was a lot of fun.

The second adventure to the pumpkin patch was a little better, but came with a little girl who ran away from me the whole time!

I don't know what it is, but Kailee likes to play chase... NOT GOOD.

We have been having a hard time trying to help her understand that running away from us is BAD. She hasn't gotten that yet.

We had a great time with some good friends, and it ended up being a nice day.

No updates with her second ear yet. I will keep you posted. Also, we find out in a few weeks what the sex on the baby is! Yeah, that will be fun!

Here are a few cute pics I've taken this last week..

And a few Kai took as well.. maybe she'll be a photographer? I won't hold my breath!

Today was such a sweet day with Kailee.

I took her to school, and got GREAT news that she is doing terrific in her class. They say she is really talking a lot and jut really outgoing and friendly. It's nice to hear good things about your kids..:)

We went to the park for lunch and played for a while. She was so loving to me and wouldn't stop hugging and kissing me. Maybe she misses me after a morning at school? Whatever the reason, I'll talk the lovin!

We go to UCLA for our "last" apt. before possible surgery. PLEASE, pray for us during this time of decision and unknown. We are still torn with the decision for Kailee to actually have the second ear done. Pray that God will make it apparent to us the road which to take:)

Baby #2 is growing...as I can now not hide it! I am very excited and feeling pretty well. I am 13 weeks and it already feels like I've been pregnant forever! I think the only thing that I miss is not being able to work out hard, and sweat!!! I love to sweat!

As soon as I know the sex, I will post immediately. That will not be for a few more weeks though!

Pre-School

I dropped Kailee off at her first day of pre-school yesterday! Wow, was that weird! She did GREAT. I walked her in, played with her for probably a minute before she was literally pushing me out the door. She kept saying "bye, bye". Why all the other kids were crying in their mom's arms, Kailee was pushing me out the door. Interesting..

I have to say, it made leaving her a bit easier! The teachers said she did great and is very social...I think we already knew that!

Here are a few pics of the morning.. nothing spectacular..She was a little busy looking at all her new friends.